Chaser,

This month I need to apologize to you. I have not been the best mom I can be. I haven’t even come close. I feel like I should be taking this time to really enjoy you while you are still an only child and yet everyday I struggle just to go through the motions. I haven’t taken you outside to play (granted it has rained…a lot here), I haven’t been trying to teach you new skills, I just plain haven’t done much.

Despite my best efforts you are becoming quite the independent little boy. You rarely let me hold you to take your bottles, only the Grandma’s get that job these days. You would like to be able to dress yourself but I just can’t see letting you go around in only a diaper all day every day.

You learned how to stand up this month, it started in your crib but it wasn’t long before you were pulling yourself up to EVERYTHING. We’ve tried to show you how to walk to get from point A to point B but you stubbornly insist that your way is better. When you get tired you crawl over to me on the couch and pull yourself up and shut my computer screen. You may not talk yet but you certainly know how to communicate your needs.

Your eating has improved but only marginally. You have a new fondness for Cheerios and yogurt. Like any child you are also proving to love peanut butter sandwiches. You drive your dad crazy by shoving fistfuls of food into your mouth all at once, but I say let you live and learn. I promise not to let you actually choke.

I love you more than anything in the world and I promise that as soon as the new baby stops punishing me we are going to have one heck of a good summer.

Love Mama