Chaser – 15 months

by jenbshaw on August 26, 2010

Once again I have found myself staring at a blank screen trying to put into words my feelings at another of Chaser’s milestones. In the days leading up to a “big month” I find myself making mental notes of all the things I want to say and then somehow I lose it.

For some reason I discussed this with Heather again, it went just about as well as it did the last time. See her letter below.

Dear Chase,
You are 15 months old. Holy fuck! That is so old. Where did my little baby go? You look like a man! Also, why the fuck won’t you eat? Or walk? I am a neurotic mom and I can’t deal with you doing things at your own pace.

But I love you.
Mom

She has such a way with words.

Anyways. Here is my go at this:

Chase-face

As it turns out 15 months is just about the perfect age. As crazy as you make me most days and as much as I wish you would learn just a couple of new skills I am laughing more everyday with you. Perhaps it’s the fact that I know that our time with just the two of us is coming to an end soon so I’ve been careful to really enjoy our time together.

Just when I thought you were all done being my baby you have a sudden new fondness for snuggling. We have morning snuggles and we rock at bedtime again. Sometimes during the day you want nothing more than to sit on my lap with your sippy cup and watch cartoons.

There are also days when you seem so grown up that it actually takes my breath away. Your afternoons often consist of playing by yourself in your room with your cartoons playing in the background. I put up the baby gate at your door and you are content for a few hours on your own. (Please note that I check on you frequently and I’ve completely baby-proofed your room, you’ve only strewn baby powder all over ONCE)

By the time your next milestone month comes along you will no longer be an only child. Parts of me wish I had just a little more time for it to be just the two of us. I know it’s going to be hard on you when we bring a new baby home but I promise that you are still just as much my baby and no one could ever take your place. I will always make time for it to be “just the two of us”.

Love Mama

06-07-2010

iPhone Photos

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A New Endeavour

by jenbshaw on July 30, 2010

In case you hadn’t noticed the posting around these parts has been sparse. There is a reason other than extreme laziness I swear, well a couple of reasons. For starters I have a one-year old and am currently growing another human, absurd amounts of work I tell you, I don’t recommend trying both at the same time.

My main reason however is that I’ve been working on a new project, a new blog. I’m extremely blessed to have such supportive caring friends who push me to put aside my fears and “go big”. Seriously I can’t thank them enough for all the hand-holding I’ve required while putting this together.

I struggled for a long time with wanting my blog to be a personal space and yet wanting to make it more of a business as well. I always worried that going for one thing was completely cutting off the other. I feel like I’ve finally found a solution to the problem. For me the answer was to put myself out there in different places and stop trying to force it all into one space.

For a year now I’ve been a writer at Aiming Low, and I can’t begin to tell you what that collaboration has done for me, especially my self esteem. Recently Heather and Meghan asked me to join them at Hot Mom Reviews and I’m so excited for the opportunities that will bring. Still I felt this need to be doing something that was completely my own, something I was passionate about.

So without any further ado, I introduce to you my new endeavour, The Casual Organizer (www.thecasualorganizer.com).

I hope you will all join me over there where I will do my best to share all of my organizing knowledge and know-how. A special and heartfelt thank you to my wonderful friend Maria for all her help in designing and coding of the new space. I could not have done this without her. Also thank you to the fabulous AliMartell and Amy for all their grammar policing and general proof-reading. (editor’s note: neither was privy to this post so ignore any errors here)

As for this space, it can go back to just being about me, my kids and my family, everything I originally wanted it to be. I couldn’t be happier!

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